Namaste yogis & yoginis,
It's about time I tell my story, as I feel I now have the pieces, and I want to share in case there is someone else out there unable to get their health and motivation on track – that might just have this simple solution. About 7 years ago – I moved into my little house. I was happy and loved it. I could, however smell some mould – I knew what it was like from a previous home. There was water damage on the porch, so I fixed it. I replaced the carpet and had an air-vent put in. These all helped. Then I got my first cold in literally a decade. I was bummed about breaking my “record” but didn't think much of it. Then I injured my hip and could barely walk for 18 months. Pain lowers your immune system. The next year I got another cold, and flu – and this became a common occurrence – resulting in 3 bouts of pneumonia and 1 laryngitis/allergic response that saw me go to hospital unable to breathe within 18 months last year. Each time I was sick it took weeks and weeks out of my life – both while “sick” and “recovering”. I kept getting worse over time. I used all of my knowledge of yoga & diet and tried to heal myself. I could get relief, but it was short-lived. I went to doctors (conventional and alternate) and many kinds of practitioner. I got temporary relief each time, but went down again. Eventually I was fatigued all the time. Everything felt like a struggle. I had brain fog. I had headaches every day (I was disappointed as I had rid myself of daily headaches with yoga years ago), I had pain (random, floating, general pain) in my body almost every day, I had severe joint ache and stiffness. I had ZERO motivation or enthusiasm for anything. I could barely function. I had to get someone to help me clean, and I had to use all of my energy to focus on the essentials and get by. My fitness went out the window, and eventually I was unable to finish sentences/carry on a conversation – I would completely lose track of what I was saying. A friend of mine had told me how she had her house treated for mould. I knew I had mould – even though I had cleaned and cleaned, and thrown out so many things that had mould on them – I thought I had it under control. I bought a de-humidifier and a machine that put salt in the air of my room. But I couldn't get well. I finally had the specialist she recommended come and check out my house. He said I had the perfect conditions for mould – living on a river (had been flooded out of home twice in the last few years), low to the ground, and no airflow through the house. He tested the humidity in the house – it was high. The quote for remediation was more than I could afford, and he suggested a number of things I could do myself. I went away to Sydney and was gone for a few weeks (I almost always improved when away). When I came back and opened the door – I was nearly knocked over with the thickness of the air – full of mould. I asked him to come asap. Since he has been, and killed all of the mould – I feel as if I have my life back. Although it will take some time for my body to recover from the effects of prolonged exposure (up to 2 years is normal) and I have to make sure my house stays well aired from now on – I feel a million times better than I did. I have won the lotto!! I feel enthusiasm and enjoyment coming back. I am going on a holiday next week that feels like something to look forward to, not get through! I have regained confidence to commit to teaching again and have started running workshops and the Apprenticeship Program that has been on hold for years. I cannot explain how completely different I feel – daily headaches gone, joint pain gone – body beginning to function again. From walking only 200 steps a day, I have been walking up to 12,000 (and hope to make that my average again!). Yoga teaches us to see the perfection in all things – and the silver lining of the mould is that I have had to let go of a lot of things. Possibly that were distractions on the path in the long run. I have learned that things come and go and not to attach to something, or feel a lack because I miss out on something. I have come to love looking at trees again, and listening to bird call – sending me into naturally meditative states and re-connecting to the deeply spiritual core of Nature. I have had a lot of time to think and process, and not think, just let things process through me – and become clearer on my priorities, vision and direction. I have been incredibly confronted by my ego's ideas of who I should be and how I should look and I have had to let those ideas go and set myself free to be in the moment as I am. I have been able to finally bring forward a training program that I feel is inclusive, and feels interesting to teach and be part of, and meets the new yoga world without losing the valuable teachings of the old. I have faced my mortality, and realised how precious this gift of life is. Hopefully, you don't have to go through such debilitation to receive these gifts – but if you do – look for them. More importantly – give yourself space and time anyway – and the results will be the same – and hopefully while you're healthy. So if anyone out there is experiencing weird, hard to explain and hard to diagnose symptoms – this is definitely one avenue to consider. Be well, in health, in spaciousness, live true <3
(I used David from Sequiess 0437270 704 for the mould remediation – thank you!) I have also supported my recovery with yoga, meditation, pranayama, herbs, acupuncture, chiropractic (Zuma – focus on the nervous system), the Salt Room @ Bundall and diet.